And I can't even fall for someone who is willing to catch me.
I'm happy for my friends when their love life goes great, I don't feel sad that they're happy and I'm not, I'm just jealous. BIG TIME.
I wish I could find one person. Just one! Is that so much to ask?? One person who loves and cares for me, who is willing to risk it all for me, someone who will take me out on picnics and to the beach and is happy just to be with me, who doesn't necessarily want all the saliva-related stuff.
Someone, who maybe, is happy to lay under the stars and listen to my heartbeat and doesn't ask anything of me. Someone who doesn't want anything from me, who will happily listen to me talk forever and a day.
But that's too much to ask for from God, isn't it?
Of course it is.
Love Deanna xxx